Sunday, January 18, 2009

Embarrassing Moments - Part 1

In retrospect, I’m reminded of some of the most embarrassing moments of my life. While some sprout a chuckle now, some still hurt to an extent. Time is the healer and deservedly, the oldest of incidents belong to the former while the latest of them fall in the latter category. Penning them down shall relieve me of the ill-feelings, to an extent. This piece may turn some sympathetic while also proving to be a good entertainment for many thereby supplanting a laugh riot. I don’t mind both.

The oldest of them happened when I was in UKG. I still have a vague memory of that afternoon. There was this relative of mine, a 50 yr old man then, who seemed too harsh. Leave alone me, be it any child, had I been him, I wouldn’t have treated a child that harsh. Just because I had failed to answer the 'Camel' as the ship of the desert, he made me kneel down under the scorching sun and I was made to repeat that sentence at least 10 times. That hurt me, both physically and mentally and I was too small a child to have so much gut to speak against. It was embarrassing to get punished by an outsider but today, I pity me. Poor kid!

I had always felt insecure in the absence of my parents and though we live in a joint family, the comfort a child shares with his parents is unmatched. I was no exception and though I never felt 'mom-sick' and did go on tours with relatives, I had done so without realizing this insecurity I used to face, time and again. Even the smallest of scolding from relatives, in the absence of my parents, pained and hurt as bad as a tight slap on one’s cheeks. Though I hardly showed up any emotion, these gloom drops piled up to form an ocean of ill-feelings and the gloomy waters drained in a laminar fashion only after the re-union with my parents. As a kid, those were the toughest of times to face but I made sure, the ocean never produced a tsunami-like outburst. Looking back, just like the previous case, I pity me.
I still remember this particular incident when my Grandma questioned me in a 'slightly' higher tone as to why I had failed to shut the back gate of the house. That was unusual of her because she’s the kindest of people I’ve ever come across. That tone really bothered me so much that I started weeping. Tears rolled down involuntarily and it was so humiliating to cry amidst 8-9 people. All in my house, including grandma were shocked to see my reaction. In retrospect, I’m bowled over by the respect I had for her even at that young age ( I was, maybe 7 or 8 yrs old)  that I felt bad for such a small thing.

Another embarrassing incident happened while I was in class 9. The half-yearly IT papers were distributed to us and I had managed a mediocre 54 percent marks. Some students who had deserved better marks approached the teacher for re-correction and she was seen awarding them with more marks with no cross-checking. Sensing this, in an attempt to boost up my marks and with notoriety, I took a red ink pen from my friend’s bag, added more marks for many answers and complained the teacher of totaling error. Already carrying a 'notorious-character' certificate for passing sarcastic moments and having teased her, quite a lot during class hours, I was an exception there and she verified my paper alone. PANG! I had made the smallest of mistakes as the exact color of the red inks differed. While the ink she used was dark, mine was lighter. She questioned me if I had indulged in any sort of malpractice by correcting some answers myself but I stayed adamant by not admitting the fault. The drama gained momentum, news spread to neighbouring classes as she started screaming in a higher tone. Other teachers entered and having succumbed to the galloping pressure, I finally pleaded guilty. I was screwed badly with the class teacher jacking me left, right and center and I was asked to meet the Principal that evening. On retrospection, this passes off as yet another infamous act of mine, while in school and sometimes I feel proud to be part of this drama. The scenario then, was in complete contrast and I was shell-shocked, the moment I was instructed to meet the Principal that evening.

More of such incidents are lined up for next weekend. Watch out!!!

To be continued…


Usha Pisharody said...

We all have our share of these moments.. :)

Nice and open bit of sharing here :) It's good to visit those moments and take heart from it, to learn how much we have grown from there, and how much of it we sometimes carry around with us, isn't it?

Nice post

SMRITI said...


The school incident would be something I'd really be embarressed with. My problem was I could never go up to a teacher and ask for marks, except when it was a totalling mistake. And you actually did that?? With a red pen?? Gosh... :D

SMRITI said...

Shit!!! And I was about to jump up and down saying "I'm first to comment!!" :P

This is embarressing now :P

Rajesh said...

Yeah...well said. U must had had more of these, being elder. U know it better. Well said...A lot to learn from there and also, as u rightly said, how much we carry with them goes to show the effect of it on us.

Rajesh said...

If this was embarrassing, wat wud call the write-up of mine :) incident was the most embarrassing of all. GOSH :D

ANWESA said...

it was a nice read,as usual!!:)n d skul incident--hah-mayb it wud still hurt.

Ani said...

hehe well all of us have such embarrasing moments.. hehe its part n parcel of growin up dearie.. hehe.. cant wait to read the rest now..

n yup am back ;)

Ramya said...

It takes some guts to put these down, kudos to you for that!

Still thinking said...


You're just another bad boy :D

Btw, what happened at home after the rendezvous w/ the principal?

Rajesh said...

@Anwesa doesn't and as I said, sometimes I feel proud to have been part of it. These are things which make ur life spicy and make life interesting...when u look back, u feel u had done all these things...Nice feeling!!!

Rajesh said...

Wow!!! Great to have u back...hope u r almost done with ur RESEARCH...whatever!!!! cant afford to miss u 4 a looooong time... on the way very soon :)

Rajesh said...

Sorry...what is ROTFL??? I dont get u..

Yeah...I don't think one needs guts. In the sense, the intent to put down things comes as u grow up and mature. U actually cross that level and these things look not that serious anymore to have that 'GUTS' :)

Rajesh said...

@Still Thinking
Just like Ani ...nice 2 have u back on blogger...keep coming...

I never claimed myself to be a GOOD BOY :) :) I never does that mean I AM A GOOD BOY???? No comments..

Well...what happened at home??? Well...needless to say, I had a BLAST!!!!! Mom screwed me like hell... That was a day I never would forget till I die :) :)


Rakesh Vanamali said...

Dont we all have our testing times and sticky situations to go through!

I could relate to most of them. Your post brought back some memories that refuse to die out!

Time, indeed is a wonderful healer!

Thanks for visiting my space. Appreciate it!



Free-Fallin' said...

hey rajesh,
just went through your comment on my blog, and thought of leaving a note...
wow, you are the first person to comment on the title of my blog! i was begining to wonder if it really suits the thought process in my write-ups (or if "ricocheting" is a simple word to find in a dictionary, heheh).
thanks for taking the time out to read, hope to see more of you around here.
your blog seems well-written, i shall go through it in time, until then, ciao, take care.

Prashant Sree said...

Your writing style has refined well... And i appreciate your attitude to face up to the bad/embarrassing moments in your life and share it on a public forum.

Keep Expressing ;)

Rajesh said...

Nice 2 hear that I brought memories that refused 2 die out..Nice nice...Yeah..embarrassments are part n parcel of everyone's lives... :) :)

Rajesh said...

@Free fallin
Yeah...I did love the title of the blog...DIFFERENT!!!

Yea..keep coming..

Rajesh said...

@Prashant Sree
Thanks man!!! Nice 2 hear such words from ppl like u...m humbled!!!!

Keep coming...

Tara said...

Wow! Really it takes a lot of courage to accept one's worst moments and more importantly to share it with the world...and kudos to you for having done that so gracefully! :)

A wonderful read. Well written. :)

Rajesh said...

Hey!!! Nice 2 have u back here...missed u quite alot here..

Well...yeah..I've no qualms in accepting what I was and what I am...its a nice feeling to look back at ur past... :)

everything burns... said...

the first part was touching and m sure it has lightened your burden to have now shared it with so many of ur avid readers...
thee second u re gutsy... hehe... but i gess most of us hv either done somen like tht or hv encouraged some1 to do tht in skool life...hehe....

Rajesh said...

Nice 2 c u say it was I guess, u belong to the category of ppl who is sympathetic. Thanks!!! I had rightly stated that in the first paragraph.

Second part, as u put, of the many infamous incidents I had been part of..

More coming up next out!!!


Nice post.

Gauri Mathur said...

Gone through really good embarrassing moments:D

Rajesh said...


Many do, just like me

Gauri Mathur said...


RiverSoul said...

That school incident must have been quite embarrassing
But yes. I liked what you said about time being the ultimate healer.
Well written.
Awaiting the next part.

Rajesh said...

Oh!!! Thanks man...Next part up soon :)

Priya Joyce said...

tat skul incident wow! i thot I was the only person in the world who has courage to put up such incidents on blog :P

I had a gud laff