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Sunday, September 28, 2008

Love You!!!

I love him the most. He’s just more than a human being. He’s more than a friend to me. He’s someone I admire and respect. Is he God? No, He’s much more than that…someone I would like to hug when I’m happy and whose words can definitely get me out of distress. He’s that one person who can make me repent, the moment I get harsh at him. My attachment with him gets special when he gets me all I want but the one thing I yearn forever is his affection. His voice, when I listen to, over the phone takes me to a land which is alien to the word ‘frustration’. He’s that one and only person to whom I’ve stated ‘I’m grateful to you and love you lots’. He’s the best DAD in the world. I’m proud to say, none except my little bro has that special privilege to call him APPA. It is a license I possess, which neither requires a renewal nor has an expiry date.

I really mean every word in the above paragraph. In fact, I mean much more but definitely not able to express it still better.

I was sitting next to him in his bedroom asking him what to do with that 1000 bucks gift voucher I received from The Hindu. I suggested a LCD monitor which has been in scrutiny for many days. We had planned to get it a week back but somehow it got delayed. Now, he replied in the affirmative. He was lying on the bed and I sat inclined with my head on his back. A sound sleep beckoned him when I interrupted ‘Appa….you read my blog this morning right? How was it? You never told me??’ ‘Yeah…good’ he replied half-heartedly. ‘Appa, you remember what I told you last night?’. ‘Yeah I do’ he replied and said what exactly I had expected him to.

I had told ‘Appa…I’m really grateful to God for having bestowed me with such a dad…I still cant think of better means to thank you or Him than admitting my love for you’. You may wonder if I was cajoling him to get something done. No, it was a heart-felt conversation and my observations on him, the way he’s been to me over the years, his purity at heart and what not ??? These make me love him so much.  As I whole-heartedly acknowledged, I cuddled him till he felt the warmth a little too much. It was also that night when I told him ‘Appa, I want to write about you in my next blog’. With that smile and two dimples adoring his cheeks, he nodded his head. ‘Will you wait and read it once I post ? I asked and he replied ‘Yeah....sure’. I jumped out of the bed, ran to my room and here I’m, writing this.

As a kid, I remember the days when we had gone together, for shopping. Those crowded streets have never really bothered him and he was as agile as possible. A walk for a few yards would push me to take a seat in one of those chairs outside a shop but the enthusiast he is, would be venturing into the next shop for purchase carrying the bags too. Those sugar-cane juices, softy cones would pull me towards them and when I express my want for a softy to my dad, he gets wild ‘That’s the problem with you and that’s the very reason why I don’t take you out for shopping. You keep disturbing me with these things. They are not hygienic and I can't get you one’. I would retort back ‘Please pa…please pa…they look really tasty….please’, I plead with my right hand locking his palms. Snatching away a 10 rupee note from his purse, he would let me venture into my world of joy. After me feasting over a softy and as we leave the shopping area, he would come close to me and ask ‘How was the ice-cream?’ and that’s when we renew our talks. ‘Superb….thanks a lot pa’ would be my reply and the standard dialogue he would utter after every shopping session ‘Hereon I won’t take you with me for shopping…you disturb me too much’. I let this into my right ear and let it go through my left ear.

There’re quite a few things that makes me admire him. His concern for everybody in our family, conviviality, non-interference in other’s affairs, his desire to learn new things have made me stay in awe of him. The keenness with which he shares with me, things that interest him leaves me in admiration of his wholeheartedness and on most occasions, my admiration of his charm overshadows the actual conversation and I fail to listen to what he had got to say. His reactions when I had been through tough times in life were so solacing and had left me wonder if he actually has more concern for me than what I have. A very supportive person on most occasions he is, but on a few, he expects more from me, rather I had failed to live up to his expectations. 

I’ve always loved to irritate him. Despite my mom advising me not to find pleasure, it’s just been inevitable. My mockery of his favorite singers, actors makes him get mad at me. I keep ridiculing them and try my best to show them in poor light. Beyond a point, dad loses his temper and when I try to get near him, he pushes me saying ‘either of us should stay here….if you want to, I shall leave….please don’t come near me’. And that’s when I hug him and say ‘I was just kidding pa’. Other means by which I irritate is by imitating him wherein I visualize situations and reproduce the manner in which he would have reacted. He has always enjoyed my mimic and on many occasions, hugged me and given a pat on my back for my impersonation abilities.

As I post this write-up on a Sunday evening, I’m reminded of another Sunday evening when we both were at a restaurant and that’s when my friend called to inform that I had won 2 prizes in their college national tech fest. It was indeed a great feeling to see his delight and to me, that reaction of his meant more precious than that cash prize of 5000 bucks. Had we been at home, his reaction may have gone unnoticed in the sea of people but since we were alone together, I could enjoy his reaction and that was very encouraging. He’s one person on whose principles I would like to lead my life along. There’re innumerable things to learn from him. Our food habits are completely contrasting. While he hates onion and garlic, I love them and find food items without onion bitter. And this doesn’t stop here. While he’s very active, I admit, I’m little lazy with a laid-back attitude. While he gets tensed, I'm a tension-free person.While he’s quite an introvert, I’m an extrovert. And the list goes on. Though we’re polarized in our perception of most things, one thing we share is the love we have for each other.

I’ve pen down this write-up just to tell my dad ‘Love You!!!’

P.S: I take this opportunity to thank Tara for awarding me the Outstanding Blogger Award.

56 comments:

RiverSoul said...

Beautifully written. Actually, I envy you. Your love for your father is just as strong as mine, but I've not admitted this to him. . . .
We're blessed to have had the good fortune of having the best parents we could ever have. . . . But its very few who realise the gift, and fewer still that admit it. Hats off to your post.
:)

arunima said...

wow!! its just so beautiful n perfect. i can never express so well. very very touchin n sweet!

ANWESA said...

after reading ur post,i'm gonna kiss my papa 4 being so nice 2 me all these years.many nostalgic memories engulf my mind.ur post was brilliant!!!!...keep it up my frnd...

Gauri Mathur said...

Its beautiful Rajesh,Keep it up friend!!!:)))

Rajesh said...

@Riversoul
Thanks dude...glad u enjoyed...yeah wanted to write abt him...thats y made it a pouint to pen down my love

Rajesh said...

@Arunima
Well...thanks a lot

@Anwesa
Go ahead with no second thots...DAD s spl to every kid

Rajesh said...

@Gauri
Thanks gauri...hope u enjoyed

everything burns... said...

nice...oki so there were a lot of random thngs i had to say so i'll put them in points:
1) its wierd hw parents think that we're buttering them up if we are like all lovey dovey with them...isnt it???
2) congrats on all th money... if i ws in chennai u'd prolly b spending some of it on me...but alas my luck!! lol....
3) n its alwez nice when someone writes abt their father... coz mostly i've seen its so much abt th mother n nt abt th father... so... nice...
http://vicksvapourub420.blogspot.com/2008/07/pa.html
this is a link to somen one of my other blogger frnds wrote abt his father...interesting read in case u wanna check it out...
n as alwez keep writing!! u do a good job with tht.....

Rajesh said...

@Jahnabi
Yeah...thanks...will read it 4 sure...

my DAD s spl to me

Thanks for reading..

The Solitary Writer. said...

i guess evry dad is special to a child and this post is really excellent.....i believe that your dad would be the happiest man in this world after reading this post....and congrats for the prize and the awards......

Rajesh said...

@Solitary writer
Thanks dude...yeah...he was the 1st person to read this...and he liked it a lot...

Fantasies of a Lifetime said...

Dad's are awesome aren't they :) . . .I love my dad loads too :D . .

And ur dad loves shopping & reads ur blogs , awesome yaar . . I literally make my dad do the above 2 by force , drag him ,beg plead , water works , the entire deal!!

Rajesh said...

@Fantasies
Ha..happens...dad reads mine after a few of my cousins appreciated my writings...he doesn't drop in here on my request...but since this was abt him, he was eager...anyways he enjoyed reading...cud see his expressions

Ani said...

lovely post..

am sure he's really proud of you.. but he just wouldnt wanna admitt it much..thinking where u'll stop trying harder and work better towards achieving things..

congrats once again..
hope u had a nice weekend..
take care

Me Mini Mini Mouse said...

Awwwwww nice post rajesh... well done hai :)

U know, thr r sum ppl who yearn all thr life for love from thr parents... n so i think ppl like u n me shud count our blessings just like u did in this post... luved it :)

awesome springs said...
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awesome springs said...

Nice post.

I'd also add that many parents mean much to there kids. For instance, I can't describe the ways how my parents offered me life and I can't give back what they give for me - it's unaffordable. The last thing I want from my parents is that I wanna die in their arms.

Congrats for the wins!

deepsat said...

very touching and nicely written!!

;-))

Ferrin B said...

wow rajesh that was so sweet. one lucky appa ur dad is! you express really well, thats what i like about your writing. very touching post.......

nikkita said...

awww!!!!
that was sooo sweet of you..ur appa would be so proud of you...

i guess parents are the most beautiful gift that god gives you...
just because he cant be there with all the kids at the same time..he gives each child a ma n a pa...for all the love n care...

lucky to have read this post..even i neva leave any chance to tell 'em how much um grateful to hav them..
cheerz to all the parents of the world..
\,,/ rock on!
lv:nickku

nikkita said...

yee..u will not be mad at me anymore...cuz i commented!!!
yipee wipee woo-hoo!!
hehe..

Rajesh said...

@Ani
Yeah...maybe but I made it a point to express and m glad that I could express it in black and white

@Me mini mini
yeah thanks...I do yearn for their love and hence wanted to try my best here....this post too means so much to me

Ani said...

i know da..
which is a good thing.. :)
i meant from ur dad's point of view.. thats how dad's are..

Rajesh said...

@Awesome
yeah...well said...die in their arms???? well I don wan that to happen and make them feel bad...

Anyways lets not discuss abt death...let it happen wen its destined to...wat do u say?

@deepsat
I guess u r here after a looong time....yeah thanks dude

Rajesh said...

@Ani
That was fast....lightening speed... well...yeah...I wud nt wan him to want to also...I wrote it for my satisfaction...

Rajesh said...

@Ferrin
Yeah....thanks....he's not lucky..its me LUCKY...u rarely visit but m happy that u enjoi the ones u read...thanks

Ani said...

:) hehe i know.. i was also here.. so there u go.. :)

Rajesh said...

@Nikkitha
yeah...thanks thanks...as u said, all dads are spl but I put in an extra effort just to express my love...I love my dad...I love writing...and hence I even enjoyed writing abt the love for my dad :)

Usha Pisharody said...

You're really lucky, and you're really a rarity:)

I suppose most of us do feel this way, but not many would be as open and expressive, without inhibition. The simple natural unaffected way you speak, to your father, through this write, is really charming!

Congrats on the latest award:) Keep up the good work!

Rajesh said...

@Usha
Yeah....I m lucky....but a rarity???Maybe!!!

And yeah...the comfort level I share with him is very high....I really mean it...n I guess this write-up shud justify it..

Thanks for acknowledging that charm....Very true...Thanks!!!

Anahita said...

hey.. great entry.. it really made me cry. It was really sweet. Glad to know that there's someone else who doesn't shy away from showing how much they love their parents. Some people even think its embarassing. I'm sure reading this post would change some of their minds :)
keep writing,
☺Anahita☺

Rajesh said...

@Anahitha
Please dont cry :D :D
Yeah...as u said, there are ppl who find it embarassing....but then he's my dad...who else shall dare to express love for him????

Thats me...glad u enjoyed

Still thinking said...

Wow! you make me feel proud of you w/ every passing post :)

I'm sure you know how lucky you are to have a Dad like him and I'm sure he's equally proud of you. I envy you Rajesh (in a nice way :D) but I have a Mom and I love her loads :)

Priya Joyce said...
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Priya Joyce said...

Such a sweet post.
I too am very much attached to my dad and I still get tears in my eyes wen I don't get a goodnight kiss from ma dad.I am very emotional about it.
I am very happy to see that u and the other people who hav commented are also so very attached to their dads.

Dads are very special for all of us very very.
It actually touched me.

Tara said...

I guess I don't have enough words to put down this emotion and my feelings for this post. All I can say is it's truly beautiful, because whatever I say will be less.

Thanks for giving it to us :) and making us realize the worth of the treasure we all possess. :)

Sakshi said...

Wondering who is luckier--your dad or you.

Quite a star you are. And a star's dad is bigger eh?

Cheers!
S.

Rajesh said...

@Still thinking
U are proud of me??? Well. well glad....me too have a gr8 mom but I've jus not written here....maybe sometime later...wat do u say??

Rajesh said...

@Priya
Oh yeah....dads are always spl to every kid...and it moved u to tears is it??? well.... :)

Rajesh said...

@Tara
that was indeed sweet coz such emotions can definitely not be expressed...u made ur point straight...also happy that u enjoyed...

Rajesh said...

@Sakshi
Of course, I'm lucky to get him...and wat makes u call me a star??? I quite don think so...

Shruti said...

Your post left me with tears in my eyes because I realized how much I'm missing...
You're really really lucky to be so so close to your father *touch wood* and somewhere I'm jealous of you!! I'm being brute honest!!

Touching post!! Take care

Rajesh said...

@Shruti
Ah!!! Thanks a lot....left u with tears is it???? I myself acknowledge the might of my pen... thanks....and may I know what U miss????

Just like me, u have another special dad right???

Vivek said...

I was reminded of my post abt my dad and thought of posting the link but I guess Jahnabi has already done that ;) Hope you've read it. Yup your blog did evoke lots of wonderful memories with my dad. Today I send him loads of money from the US and he asks permission from me to spend even a rupee...and I tell him whenever I wanted something, he would just give it without asking why....its my turn now. You'll exceed his expectations some day (I think you already have). He should be proud to have a son like you.

Anu said...

Rajesh,
Really nice to see a guy writing about his Dad..Dad's are special in a different way, because they give you the broad guidelines which help you navigate the way through life.

Rajesh said...

@vivek
Yeah....gotta read that and I'll read it soon...m sure u wud have expressed still better..

and well...even ur dad ll b proud of u...and as for ur dad askin u for spending even a rupee...well.. such a sweet reply u had given...gr8 man!!!!

@ANU
Well said anu....yeah...u r right.. my dad really inspires me to attain greater heights in life..

S said...

vaery well scripted buddy.. my eyes hav turned moist..>!!!!!

ur blogrolled..>!!!
Cheers to u , appa and this beautiful relationship b/w father and son....

Cheers again...!!

Rajesh said...

@S
thanks dude....glad u enjoyed...yup.. iT WAS A TOPIC THAT COULD REACH TO ANYONE AND SOMETHING EVERYBODY CUD RELATE TO...

glad u enjoyed...keep coming..

Express said...

Aw!

makes me smile.
reminds me of my childhood.
makes me happy, very happy.

Daddy means the world 2 us.
may the relationship stay like this, always :-)

Rajesh said...

@Express
yup...he means the world to us...u r right...yeah...the relationship ll stay forever...makes me too very happy

gaurangi said...

Awww!!!
so sweet,
just felt like hugging my dad too...
parents are the blessings of god on this earth,no matter how silly, irritating we r they seem to be supporting n luving us every moment.
truly touching...
Cheers!

Rajesh said...

@Gaurangi
Thanks a lot....glad u dropped in after a long time n stil found time to read it...thanks...yeah one of ma fav post

enchanted illusionz said...

m sure ur dad mus hv thnkd god too 4 havn u.
verryy sweet & innocent post

Rajesh said...

@Enchanted
So I'm innocent is it??? I see..and My dad shud thank God eh??? Tell him...he'll think U r high

mona said...

dat was touchin.. m realy proud of u.. in today's world wen ppl r so busy fighting for materialistic things u actually took out time to simply say 'i love u'to ur dad... yeah.. truly affectionate...

family is d best gift dat God bestows upon a person... n often in life's race we forget to tell dem how much dey mean to us... i guess dis post is a tribute to all d fathers who struggle thru life's paths to ensure their children's safety n happiness... it has definitely touched my soul... a commendable job... keep writing... cheers!!!

Rajesh said...

@Mona
Thanks a lot Mona...i was very sure that u wud like this...the reason was simple...it was touching...and i know how close u r with ur family.. glad u cud drop in....thanks a lot